Today I was in a hurry to come home from work so that I could mow the yard, but my husband did it already. I was happy, but a little disappointed because I like to do it by myself. I am always the one who mow our yard and clean it up. He said he saves me so I was thinking to put decorations in the yard. It will be nice to have water fountains outdoor gardens since we do not have any yet. One of our neighbors has water fountain at their yard and it looks nice. It adds some beauty to their yard.
22
May
On Monday I was supposed to be off, but I went to work instead. There was a big Golf tournament at the club so they asked me to work. Mondays is the only day that I am off from work and I really hate it when I work that day. But sometimes I cannot say no to the work. I like working and making money that is why I cannot say no. I also need to work. Anyway it was supposed to be four hours’ work, but we were so busy I ended up working more hours. I got home very tired.
08
May
Yesterday I was off from work, but I never do anything. I was just home watching TV and laying down on the bed. I was so depressed and stressed yesterday and I could not think right. I think I need to take a program from Non 12 step rehab. I supposed to mow the yard and clean up the house, but instead I was busy watching TV. I did not even know what I watched. I was just watching without listening. This morning when I woke up I was still a little stress, but I was a little fine already until I went to work. Before the end of my work shift I felt really fine. I do not know why sometimes I feel like this. I hate these feelings. I do not like to get stressed and depressed, but I cannot help myself.
08
May
We are going now, but I am still busy here on my computer doing task. My son and his daddy already left for baseball, but my daughters and I are still home. My daughters already bugging me to go, but I always said in a few minutes. I am not even ready yet, I still have to change my clothes and put the shoes on. I am lazy to leave the house right now, but I know that I need to go. My son will get mad to me if I do not watch his game. My daughters cannot wait to go so that they can play at the park while their brother play baseball. I will be out here in a few minutes.
