Today I was in a hurry to come home from work so that I could mow the yard, but my husband did it already. I was happy, but a little disappointed because I like to do it by myself. I am always the one who mow our yard and clean it up. He said he saves me so I was thinking to put decorations in the yard. It will be nice to have water fountains outdoor gardens since we do not have any yet. One of our neighbors has water fountain at their yard and it looks nice. It adds some beauty to their yard.

Yesterday I was off from work, but I never do anything. I was just home watching TV and laying down on the bed. I was so depressed and stressed yesterday and I could not think right. I think I need to take a program from Non 12 step rehab. I supposed to mow the yard and clean up the house, but instead I was busy watching TV. I did not even know what I watched. I was just watching without listening. This morning when I woke up I was still a little stress, but I was a little fine already until I went to work. Before the end of my work shift I felt really fine. I do not know why sometimes I feel like this. I hate these feelings. I do not like to get stressed and depressed, but I cannot help myself.

When my daughters were just one year old my husband got a swing set from his boss. They threw them away and they gave it to my husband. His boss was so nice for thinking about my children. I think the swing set they gave was like the swing sets in virginia beach. My husband put the swing in our backyard and my children were enjoying it. Now that they are big already they seldom play the swing, but when their friends around they play with it. I am so thankful about it.

My husband was out of work for a few years now and it was sad. He could not find a better hob for him. He is working sometimes at the apartment as maintenance, but sometimes not. It depends if the apartment have some repairs to be done. He is a good handy man, but sometimes he is in pain and cannot do the job. I asked him to look for San Diego employment attorney, but I got tired of asking him about it. It is difficult for me because I have to work hard just to pay all our bills. Sometimes I think about of giving up, but I am tired of thinking about it already. I might just wait until I cannot do it anymore or until when I can make it.